(besnard lakes tee, pamela love necklace, thrifted shirt, comme des garcons shoes)
Summertime means a million different things, but is precious for its memories, each of which seem so distinct and resist blurring into each other. This summer I feel that something has changed within me - I've clicked into adulthood, or something, I don't know, I've grown up and life is filled with much more responsibilities. Morgan and I were talking about how we've become boring. In our early twenties we used to drink in purple bars and dance under nebulae (we were the only ones dancing). But times have changed. Nowadays we find comfort in easy dinners and Sex and the City at home on broken couches. Watching that show as grown-ups is sobering for us because we've come to realize how true it is. Like only now can we relate to Carrie's financial struggles or Charlotte's marital woes; it is meaningful on a level that is uncanny. We also saw Frances Ha a few days ago were totally stuck by its depiction of like, actual reality. It's almost disturbing real. Way more than Girls (but it isn't a competition, of course), because the film is painfully awkward. When Frances trips on the dismembered pavement of NYC, or when she relocates herself, or is emotionally assaulted by other women...every five seconds we looked over to one another in the theater, silently telling each other "been there."
Frances Ha is sorta what inspired me to wear to black and white, because the movie is shot in monochrome. It lends this feeling of present nostalgia, almost...as if you were remembering something that happened a year ago or a few months ago. Memories of things that took place when your life was somewhat similar to the way it is now.
Lives change and people change. That's probably the biggest reason you should strive to live in the present, because the next second becomes a different life than the moment before it, moment you'll never have again. In a lot of ways I am regretful of the ways I spent my youth and perhaps regret will likely gnaw at me for a good while, but at least I've managed to find a way to exist within today. It is my hope that you all can do so too.