1/31/2013

hysteria: visualizing female anxiety

this sexy flyer was designed by Alicia Gaines

I am honored to be showing work tomorrow at Hysteria: Visualizing Female Anxiety, a one-night art show curated by one of my closest friends, Carmilla Dirt. This is the art show that she has been wanting to put on for years. The theme of the show is a visual and tactile representation of the anxiety and restlessness that is a part of the female experience, and the different ways in which in we deal with it, or don't deal. I've written before about suffering from social anxiety, but the truth is, my anxiety has always been on a much more pervasive level that simply manifests itself most often when I am forced to interact with other humans. So my brain in attempting to preserve a sense of normalcy, reacts to my anxiety by disassociation - that is, I experience a sense of derealization as a sort of defense mechanism. That derealization used to be so severe that I would stare outside a window and wonder why the world was a dream I couldn't wake up from. Or I would gaze curiously at my limbs and find that I did not recognize them as part of my own body. This in turn directly inhibits my ability to connect with other people on any sort of meaningful level. I have been able to manage this for the most part as I've grown older and accepted this is how my brain processes the world. But on some level, those feelings will always be present within me. My work for Hysteria directly deals with that theme of disconnection via anxiety as I seem to experience it. I'll be showing 4 photos, as well as a performance art video piece that I'm especially excited about. There will be other wonderful female artists showing installations, paintings, sculptures, and performances. If you live in Chicago, please come to this! Meeting readers is always fun, but would mean a lot to me in this context. Hope to see you.

3 comments:

Flow Disruption said...

This sounds truly beautiful. I have severe social anxiety, which mainly means severe panic attacks (all the mother flippin' time), but yeah. This post just really resonates. I hope the show goes well. :)

Kathryn said...

If the exhibit is documented in any form, I would be really excited to see how it comes together. I think this is a really beautiful theme to be working with. Let me know? x Kat.

im said...

I live in northern california, so i initially got excited when I saw the N California on the poster until i realized it was a street...

wish I could go, hope it goes really well!