11/13/2012

there is no there


 (rodarte for opening ceremony blouse, skirt gift from sobotka)

I really must offer a huge thanks to Sobotka for this skirt. It's a one-off piece that looks as though it came out a nightmare, but the kind of nightmare that isn't terrifying upon waking, just unsettling, and that mood is seductive to me. I've been waiting for months for the proper weather to wear it- that is, an unseasonably comfortable November day, with the obscured sun hanging low in the sky and the wind blowing in all four directions at once. And perhaps a bit rainy. Sometimes I become mildly obsessive about not only what I'm wearing, but the context it is presented in. It gets very exhausting to sometimes eschew practicality in favor of bloodied lace skirts, but I get so compelled to mirror my environment in what I wear, and create stupid little stories that exist only in my brain, stories I share with no one, because I like to keep my thoughts as my own. And like, how pretentious is that to explain to people that "oh I'm wearing this outfit because I've created a fictional character with this skirt, and a back story that only exists within this moment in time", does anyone really want to hear that? Doubtful. I guess one's thoughts are the ultimate safe space. Cocoon yourself within them.


Rachel Comey x Hansel from Basel socks, Rodarte shoes. Walking through blood.



Maybe being stuck too much in your own brain isn't a bad thing. The world is hard enough as it is, and sometimes your perception of it can be a coping mechanism.





10 comments:

Ludo said...

Wow I didn't even notice the blood stains until you pointed it out. Your hair and the autumn lighting really suit the whole outfit, and of course the shoes are to die for

Goo Girls said...

cannot deal with how perf this skirt is

Sofie Marie said...

You have such beautiful clothes, it makes me weep,and I love how you style yourself. Quite possibly those stories in your head are what make your outfits so wonderful.
Sofie

Meagan said...

I can't even deal with your ghostliness right now.

darcy dubose said...

Everything about this is completely perfect.

Isabel said...

Whoah, that bloody hem is INTENSE in such a good way. I love the idea of making up fictional character for our outfits - I used to do it all the time. :) Also, I was trying on glasses the other day and the optometrist gave me a pair of circular frames, and I was like, "Only Meagan looks good in those!" Except i said that in my head, not out loud.

☯ZERO STYLE☯ said...

i haven't had real internet in so long, i'm becoming a shell of a person. how am i supposed to live without watching 15 episodes of rupaul's drag race per week? anyways, i just caught up on yr blog and wow i'm in love with that bloody skirt! i love that your outfits tell a story that only you know. adds to your air of ~mystery~ and ~intrigue~.

Magnet said...

Woah, lucky you. What a score the skirt is. Being stuck in your own brain isn't too bad. Well, I suppose it depends, whether being stuck there is optional. The feeling of being trapped in your brain, in the anxiety type sense is terrible :( Sucks that my perception of the world isn't a coping mechanism at all, I think it makes everything worse actually.

Kirsty Wareing said...

I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes I'll buy a piece because it reminds me of a character in a film or book and people will ask 'Why are you wearing THAT?' It would be ridiculous to explain to them that I felt inspired by Romy & Michelle, or Violet Baudelaire...

Awesome skirt.

Mat said...

your photos are looking really great at the moment