11/19/2012

a love letter to kristen stewart

luv kstew
I have a not-so-secret confession.
I love Kristen Stewart.

No, I haven't seen any of the cinematic masterpieces in the Twilight canon. And if her feelings towards the franchise are anything close to Robert Pattinson's, surely I'm not missing out! This blog post is not about her choice of contractually obligated roles or her on-screen emotional range. No, my undying devotion to Miss Stewart comes from the public persona that she lets us see.

I love that she is trolling us. I love that she has perfected the art of bitchface. I love that she wears dirty t-shirts just to piss off the paparazzi  That people think she's bratty just because she doesn't play the whole Super Gracious Female Celebrity game. That she's young and says really stupid things. I love that she angrily refuses to let us into her private life (the first time I saw that video I jumped for joy). That she's always on the verge of rolling her eyes on the red carpet because she's so in on the joke. That she wore sneakers with a ungodly beautiful Marchesa skeleton dress. I love that she slouches, that she cheated on her boyfriend, that she is deeply problematic, that's she awkward, that she bites her lip in interviews. I fucking love that she is polarizing.

Her style is completely on point, a point her haters have a hard time conceding just because she rarely accessorizes with a smile. Her balance of romance and directional modernism is CRUCIAL. She takes style risks that work so well for her precisely because her demeanor is that of "LOL OKAY GUYS, THIS CELEBRITY SHIT IS STUPID AND WE ALL KNOW IT". She totally recognizes that she gets to wear cool things because she's famous but stil steadfastly refuses to give us more than she thinks we deserve. Her style is on her terms, not ours, even if that means looking like an absolute GODDESS in a see-through gown while the tabloids call you the S-word. Hey everyone, come see how many fucks she doesn't give!

KStew reminds me so much of myself at that age! And even at this age, I guess. All of that insecurity that you cannot hide no matter how hard you try, insecurity that claws at you though you try to deny it, and comes out in everything you say and do. And when you're insecure it feels like the Eye of Sauron is permanently perched just a few inches from your face at all times - but JFC, Kristen has to deal with a real Eye of Sauron everyday! Could you even imagine having all of those TOTALLY NORMAL early twenties feelings in front of the entire world?!

As Nicolette once said, Kristen Stewart is a feminist issue. When she cheated on her boyfriend the vicious words that people spewed her way were painfully familiar to me. At her age I once found myself very publicly slut-shamed because of someone I ill-advisedly chose to sleep with, even though who we have sex with is NO! ONE'S! FUCKING! BUSINESS! - it kind of became everyone's business. I remember that soul-crushing humiliation that she must have felt, along with being labeled a gigantic slut, a label neither of us ever sought to reclaim. When women have sex society feels entitled to take ownership of our bodies to such an extent that who we have sex with is seen as public record. That's why slut-shaming happens! It's a product of many things to be sure, but a huge part of it is this fucked-up sense of ownership over women's bodies. I wanted to give her and hug and tell her "I am so, so sorry this is happening to you. It's not fucking fair that your body is not your own."

KStew babygurl, if you ever read this, please accept my invitation to brunch where we can sip mimosas and talk about ~*girl thangs*~ because something tells me you and I would be besties. Let's skip the coffee dates and go straight to brunch, okay? And please, werq that bitchface in your Balenciaga and NEVER EVER STOP.

16 comments:

readysetfashion said...

she is awesome for all these reasons! nicely stated.

alix said...

I never really had on Kristen Stewart. I didn't hate her cause she cheated on Robert Pattinsom, cause like I dont care and its none of our business. But this has officially changed my mind. She is really pretty cool. The fact

Meagan said...

I. Know. Right. She's so angsty and I looooove it.

Milex said...

yaay

becky nos said...

KStew apreesh. The worst is that director guy getting no shit at all for cheating on his wife, while Kristen gets all the slutshaming ever.

Natalie Mulford said...

Yes, yes, yes and yes! I couldn't agree with this more! I can't help but love her!

Isabel said...

SO SO SO GOOD. I had no idea her red carpet style was that bangin'. I've never considered myself a KStew lover, but I kinda love that you are.

im said...

Finally! someone who understands all my feelings towards the reigning queen of i-don't-give-a-fuck! I've always secretly loved Kristen because even if it isn't really herself that she presents, I love the self that she presents. In it's own weird way it is completely refreshing, even though I know it is just as calculated as anything else...

Magnet said...

You make a convincing argument, but I'm still not a K Stewart fan, soorrry. I can see why you are though, I just generally never think about random celebrity people very much.

Lydia said...

I love her too. I'm a bit of a Twilight fan, but I love her just because. She's actually really good in "The Runaways" and "Welcome to the Rileys."

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darcy dubose said...

This perfectly coincides with the recent issue of Bust and THEIR love letter to KStew. **enjoyed yours more**

meagan said...

@darcy dubose have not read this, thanks for the heads-up!

Flow Disruption said...

Thank you for writing this! The media storm surrounding her sex-life has really upset me. Not that it's anything new/surprising, but I've heard so many people call her a slut, whore, etc. and not a word about the man (don't even know his name) she slept with. I agree that it should be her business alone. I've certainly done a lot of things I'd be horrified for the whole world to know. I can't even imagine.

Aitch said...

So well written. I love your ballsiness with this essay--like Kristen..

alexlaughlin said...

Um, agreed. I love that she never smiles and I love that people hate her for it.