5/16/2012

there's a ghost in me who wants to say i'm sorry


galliano fall 2009/ grimes/ miu miu dream shoes, season unknown (plz identify!)/ givenchy couture spring 2012/ house of matching colours by paula selby avellaneda/ rodarte fall 2010 shoes from the coveteur/langoliers nyc saturday necklace/ ever after/ rodarte fall 2010 by autumn de wilde/ givenchy spring 2011 couture by tim walker/ miu miu fall 2011 shoes from GARAGE STOPS/ tim walker/ miu miu 1997/ cocteau twins sunburst and snowblind EP

I've been wearing black since I was...well, 15, so for well over 10 years now I've been attached to this notion that wearing black is the only way to express the darker side of things. But like I mentioned in my last post, lately I am overcome with this idea of the color white as a portal to the esoteric side of life. Something about its traditional notions of virginity and untaintedness has a unique resonance with me; in that is so reflective of the ugliness of racism and sexism and heteronormativity. And a part of myself obtains power not in reclamation, but in dissonance; that is, taking hurtful paradigms and using them against itself. It is an approach that served me well as a survivor of things (things that maybe I'll talk about one day, but not today), and one that I want to apply to the way I dress. There are terrible realities and subtleties that pervade our everyday life, and those things that we regard as a beautiful exist only within the confines of our own human corrosiveness. I want to use the color white as a blank slate upon which to project those evil things. Heaven couldn't exist without hell.


7 comments:

Lydia said...

Ever After!!!!! I have to check Netflix for this--- it's been too long!

ALCOHOLS said...

youve said it too wonderfully.

Justalazymorning said...

amazing!
and i love Grimes!!

MONSIEUR MAIKI said...

great romantic stuff.

Tori Bonaventura said...

Great collection of photos!
xo, Tori
http://daisiesandpixiedust.blogspot.com/

Lucinda said...

I've been noticing this ethereal element emerging in the way you dress, it's beautiful. As a mostly black wearer, you've given me food for thought.

Volta Delphine said...

oh yeah i really appreciate this i've been recently dressing like a hippie but wearing all black! it's such an interesting thing how dramatic colors are