3/26/2012

dream fortress

(risto trench, vintage blouse, eleven objects collar gift from the brand, rodarte x oc leather apron, dries van noten shoes)

What are roots? What is home? What is this notion of permanence, of "settling down", of comfort and stability and roof over one's head to call one's own? What do these things mean to you? I can't really say that it means anything to me. As a child our family moved many times, my time was balanced between my mother's arms and my grandparent's tender care, between states our family both fled and journeyed to. Now that I am grown I am more nomadic than ever. Living in places from two months to a year, never quite longer than a year and a half. 

As someone who lacks the feeling of home, it has become imperative that I create my own. It is my own cerebral plane that is the summation of my influences and experiences and the best possible version of my aesthetics. It's that place that your mind wanders to just before you fall asleep. It is hazy magickal dreamscapes, it is Ellie Arroway's Vega exoplanet, it is the lush environments that Liz Fraser creates simply with the sound of her voice. It is The Verve's Beautiful Mind, it is nonrepresentational reality, it is this Risto moon trench coat, it is The Fade. And lately I am less interested in adhering to a look, I'm more interested in exploring that place, my home, through my outfits. Capturing my dreams with pastel colors and hazy prints and things that bend light in interesting ways. Like this outfit, which took me out on a date night with my love last Friday.

Favorite vintage printed blouse with Eleven Objects jeweled latex (!) FW12 collar that was a far too generous present from the brand. I'm deeply humbled by this thoughtful gift. It is dreamy, translucent latex that fits right at home with my aesthetic these days. In love. 


That all probably sounded very pretentious, but I don't know, my style is changing and evolving and I get a weird sense of relief when I wear something that feels like home. Like my brain is saying "oh, this is how I am supposed to look, this is how I am supposed to express myself to the world." Do  you feel ever get that feeling?

9 comments:

Isabel said...

Yes, please. I love your brain and want to pick it and hang out and be best friends.

I totally feel you, about putting on an outit and it just feeling right. I barely ever feel that anymore, clothes are just clothes to me right now so it is an extremely special feeling.

Sarah said...

I totally know what you mean. There are days where I'm not satisfied with any part of fashion and all I want to wear are pajamas or a tee shirt and jeans...

But there are some days where when I get dressed I look at myself in the mirror and just feel good about how I'm presenting myself, aesthetically, to the world.

I think all of us "fashion bloggers" really crave those moments and that's what keeps us getting dressed.

China Lily

Ludo said...

Thanks for the thought-provoking post. Love that collar! Detachable collars are becoming so popular, I might have to make my own soon.

Magnet said...

ah yes, I know what you mean. Most days I just quickly select whatever seems like it could look okay for the day. Sometimes when I actually have time to contemplate how I'm feeling that day, I can be more selective with what I wear and when it works well I feel so much more comfortable and so much more like... me, I guess. Another interesting post btw. It reminded me of when I had to study what a 'place' is, you know, not just a physical place...

Lydia said...

I love this coat. The print is amazing. The apartment I live in now probably feels more like home than any other place I've ever lived. I think it's a combination of things-- the apartment itself, how I have it decorated, the fact that my bf lives there with me, the general mood of it.

Kailey said...

GUH - what a beautiful post (referring to the text and the look). I recently found out my family will be moving again in a couple of months, and I have to say I'm not thrilled. I moved a lot in the past 8 years too, and it is kind of hard to define "home". I do, however, long to revisit the house I liven in from 5-10 - it seems the closest place I to it.

ANYWAY, I'M SORRY FOR BLATHERING ON. I think this is my favorite look of yours yet - each piece is wonderful and brought to genius level put together *_*

Lucinda said...

Personal style is starting to mean so much more to me that just what I wear. It's what I surround myself with, what I like and now the way I live. I moved out of my family home late last year and I can't tell you how different it feels to be in a space of one's own.

Justalazymorning said...

amazing collar

kira said...

That coat reminds me of summer skies, I would definitely feel at home in that outfit!