(IAN R.N. dress, boyfriend's belt, random old tights, jil sander shoes from jane)
Bought this dress specifically because it reminds me so strongly of the cover and overall mood of Victorialand by the Cocteau Twins. The music is both organic and stark at the exact same time; full of flora but devoid of life. I really appreciate the dichotomous nature of those themes, and how perfectly the Cocteau Twins managed to combine them.
Jil Sander shoes that Jane was selling, whose hands I was delighted to take them off. Like Victorialand, it's the perfect combination of death and life. Shoes that one would construct from debris from the apocalypse.
Getting older means my body is changing again, in tangible ways, in intangible ways. I noticed my hairline was receding a few week ago and truth is, I wasn't upset about it, because growing up has its positives (like the fact that for the first time in my life, I don't feel like an explosive combination of emotions that are never really supposed to mix). I can't control what my body does but I didn't want to the world to stare at my bald spots, so now I have bangs to cover them up. They aren't perfectly straight. But there's beauty in imperfections.
The soundtrack of dreams.